The Disappearing Girl by Heather Topham Wood

Author:Heather Topham Wood
Language: eng
Format: azw3, epub, mobi
Tags: Romance, Contemporary, Fiction
ISBN: 9781483906775
Publisher: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
Published: 2013-05-01T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eighteen

“It was negative,” I said in a breathless rush, hurrying over to his bed.

At my approach, Cameron raised himself up on his elbows. Before he had a chance to reply, I jumped into his arms and buried my face in the crook of his neck. “I’m sorry for freaking out over a false alarm,” I muttered into his collar.

Alone in the bathroom, staring at the lines of the pregnancy test, I willed it to be only one line. Please, don’t make me have to eat, please don’t force me to put on weight for a baby, I prayed silently. I knew I was sick, I could feel myself barely hanging on to my sanity.

Brittany had texted and called me a dozen times since I left the dorm. Before I relayed the news to Cameron, I sent out a quick text to let her know the test was negative. She replied she had a sense it was a false alarm and guessed my period had stopped because of all of the weight I lost. I deleted her message, vanquishing her words, hoping to deny the truth behind them.

Cameron was silent, his lips in my hair. I pulled back from him. When I met his eyes, I found I couldn’t decipher his feelings. Cameron was usually an open book and I was apprehensive over what he was thinking. My gut told me I was too needy for him. He was handsome, sexy, and smart, and he didn’t have to waste his time on a girl that woke up some mornings questioning whether she could make it through the day.

“Cameron?”

“Yes?” He answered me, but his thoughts seemed far away.

“What are you thinking?”

A long minute passed. “I was just thinking how I wasn’t scared over the possibility of you being pregnant. I was more upset when I thought you were going to leave me because of Taylor.”

I gaped at him. “I don’t understand. I mean, do you want a baby?”

“I thought about it before and I definitely want kids. I’d love to be a father one day. Maybe it wouldn’t be the best time for us to become parents, but we could’ve made things work.” My Cameron, I thought affectionately, but I knew his optimism would be his undoing.

I laughed mirthlessly. “I’d be an awful mother.”

“How could you say that?” he asked. “I see the way you are with your sister. You’re always trying to look out for her.”

“You’d be an amazing dad,” I asserted. “But a child deserves a caring and loving mother.”

“Just stop it, Kayla.” Cameron sat up in the bed and his eyes darkened. “I can’t sit here and listen to you beat yourself up.” At my shocked expression, he puffed out a long sigh. “I’ve tried to be understanding. I can’t imagine what you must have gone through when you lost your father. You’re still grieving and your mother is too selfish to help you through it.”

“Cameron—” I started uncertainly.

He held up his hand to silence me. “Let me finish.

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